Ways of Denial.
There are three types of denial. Both the nature of the denying individual and the nature of the denied can be ascertained by this method. When something exists outside the scope of experience it is not denial, for one has yet to encounter it. We are answerable only to that which we glean, even if it is just the beginning of a learning experience and we have seen only the first light of an understanding, then we answerable due to our awareness, as we cannot pretend to ourselves that have not seen what we have seen. The authority that calls upon us to exercise what we know, is inside and within.
As I move through denial, it is likely that I will progress through it by first recognizing, then valuing, and finally expressing. These three areas of denial are often deeply connected. Recognizing will continue as I begin to value and finally to express. Full recognition requires that I fully value and fully express it. Nothing can be fully valued without experiencing it being expressed, nor fully expressed without having fully valued. So, though I may enter these fields in the order by first recognizing, then valuing, and finally expressing, each aspect will draw to it the needed experience demanding further growth (the overcoming of the denied) until each is fully realized.
The first denial is over the existence of something. When there is something that lies within the scope of my experience but I have refused to acknowledge its existence, this is the first denial. In every case of denial, the something I deny is an area of human attribute, for though denial can cover many phenomenon, the denial itself is specific to me as an individual and is based on a suppressed fear– a fear of an area of human experience.
The second denial is over value. I have recognized the area of human experience either in myself or in another. The process of valuing continues as I further witness it. I will not ordinarily begin to express it through myself before having formed some opinion of what its value is. Hence, my second denial will be of whether it deserves to be or whether it should be expressed. I have made a judgment– a value judgment.
The third denial is of expression. I may feel that I know a good deal about the behavioral aspect, yet I will deny it expression. I will not allow myself to have it– possess it– be it. I may hold it in high esteem, yet refuse to express it for fear of what it might bring me. I will feel ill-prepared to encounter what it may bring me– of what choosing it may bring.
The three types of denial (recognition, value, and expression) will continue to impact experience. Even while expressing it and valuing it to some degree, I will still learn and recognize more about its essential nature as human behavior.
If, for example, I have met each criterion and continue to stay in step in these three areas, then it is the same as if the behavioral aspect were lying outside the scope of my experience. This is not denial, but rather navigation. I may still encounter something of significant size to be dealt with when I begin to work at a greater depth. Still, I have gained the tools to understand the nature of these experiences as they make themselves known.